
No, no, no.
She didn’t know,
she couldn’t see my loss,
drained of outward expression,
emotionally spent, I sat — still,
a heartless, brainless mannequin,
my skin ripped by her words.
I was not, as she accused,
an automaton. I loved her.
My brain and heart were not sapped,
but hope seemed impossible.
Suicide seemed the only answer,
an escape from daily pain, the way home,
to bring order to irreversible chaos.
My mind: bleak, grim, sullen:
I walked to window,
I cried, broken, never again to be me.
Look both ways.
Reality isn’t always as it seems.
Mind the gaps, nothing is perfect.
Into every life, some sadness, some love, some hope, some loss.
Hard to “like” this one. Reality is often not what it seems. Those who suffer from depression can often be one word, gest, moment from crossing that forever line.
Written so well, Bill.
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Thank you, Dale.
I have been told that we each have our own “reality.” Indeed, life, the ultimate reality; and some poetry, can be too dark (sad, frightening) to like. Not one to embroider on the family pillow.
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That we do. And, I truly believe, they are not to be compared.
Of course, I do like what you have done 🙂
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Thanks, Dale. And happy Saturday to you. 🙂
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And to you! The sun is blinding, the air fucking cold… welcome to Quebec! 🥶🌞
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“Cold,” dreary, and wet here. But the swimming pool is indoors. 🙂
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Wonderful! Glad you have access to an indoor pool. I am so not a swimmer and admire those who are.
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Cardio. Silence. Thoughts. Water. 🙂
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I understand. Lilke Rochelle. 🙂
Me? Walk, Thoughts, Silence. The cardio is when I am able to run or when I find a good workout 😉
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Done. I walk one day, swim the next, if all is well. Today it is. 🙂
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Good for you. It’s what keeps you in such great shape!
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Thank you, Dale. 🙂
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🙂
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TOUGH WRITE …hard point…well said.
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Thanks, Doug. Hard times.
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Masterly words Bill!
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Thank you, Peter.
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